You can't fall off a mountain...

Said 'Ray Smith' to Japhy Ryder... I, however, am not so sure. I say this as I sit here writing, once again in the valley looking up to the peaks above. Not too long ago I was in a hole, several feet below the valley floor, my only vision...of darkness. Then, as quickly as the spiral downward had begun, I found myself scaling the cliff sides in leaps and bounds.

In February I landed a serendipitous gig as an assistant casting director for an indie film production company. It was a blessing from the universe. It allowed me to re-realize my passion for the industry, my entire reason for moving to California 8 years ago. After the gig, the CEO interviewed with me and I had a conference with the chairman and COO. Apparently they were impressed with my work and asked me to come aboard with a 3 year contract to work in Southeast Aisa.

What can I say, I was shocked, overcome, joyed beyond belief. Too good to be true? Well, had everything transpired smoothly, I would have been working in Asia right this very second. I suddenly found myself in the middle of an unexpected salary negotiation and have since been feeling less and less interest and urgency from the company. And here I sit, in my little apartment, in front of my beautiful mac, with greasy hair, scruff, b.o. and a desire to eat everything in sight despite not being hungry, failing at trying to not listen to my natural inner monologue...

I've always loved writing. Any creative outlet, really. I also love using three little dots to express a pause in thought... I am horrible at keeping regiment about scribing in my journal, and thought, "Hey, everyone else is doing it, come onnnn. Don't you wanna be cool, too?!" My knees, buckling under the inter-webbal peer pressure, could no longer withstand the weight. And so...

I will do my best to keep up with this. If for no other reason, to vent and absorb, and perhaps learn from my ramblings. I often talk to myself as I am usually my own company and we have to talk to someone, don't we? Yes, I am weird. Anywho... Let's see if I can muster up the wherewithal to shower and venture out. TTFN (ta ta for now)