At this point in my life, with what I have experienced, it is difficult for me to believe that all relationships won't eventually fail, fall short, die out, that love or attraction won't ultimately wain...
Yes, of course I see that for some this isn't the case; that there are couples that live and grow and continue to be happy and healthy throughout their relationship. I just am having trouble keeping the faith for myself. I know that I deserve it, but am I capable of it? Doubting yourself is a tough reality. I thought, for the first time in my life, that I was going to spend the rest of my life with a woman. Now I look back and feel a bit foolish. Perhaps it was overzealousness of having a serious relationship for the first time in 9 years. Not that I've been hunting for one these past years mind you, quite the opposite actually. This one just wolloped me from behind while I had long been reserved to solitude. Who knows? It is lonely at times...
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